Starved for change, clinging to routine

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 18:51:38 GMT

I haven't posted on live journal in ages.

Sun, 28 May 2006 00:05:22 GMT

.Holy Frig.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 00:37:23 GMT

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/171854735

try it...c'mon it is fun to be a silly girl

la

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 17:27:39 GMT

Hello,
Welcome..kinda.
christmas is past.
It was a decent christmas. though I still am not feeling top notch. My stomache just aches and I keep rolling around throughout the night.
I went for a sleepover with sarah & baby last night. It was lots of fun.
Little zachery is a pro-grunter....HEEEEEEEERRRRRRRREEEEEEEE WE GOOOOOOOOOO!
I lost my goonies movie..perhaps because i am such a goon. And don;t know how to look after my things, lol.
Well things to look forward to are...
* tmorrow is my last night of work until new years eve
* Going to Stratford then london (picking up bekah)
* visiting sarah on friday
* Camp Reunion
* going to moms after

Things i am not looking forward to ...
*saying goodbye to michelle...

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 01:25:31 GMT

Dear: michelle Drew...
You are 19..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY..SORRY THIS IS LATE................. I HAD TO WORK A 12 HOUR SHIFT @ WORK..WOAH MAMA. i LOVE YOU ALOT THOUGH! HOPE YOU ARE HAVING GOOD CELEBRATIONS!

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 04:26:34 GMT

I like Newton Newton Newton (yes that is his first,middle and last name)...Despite everything I have told you in the past. He is an ok dog...even though Dad and Step Mom like him more then me alot. but i mean why wouldn't they...He eats the food he is given and doesn't try and get seconds like me, he likes to cuddle, he is good company, He is not lazy he loves W-A-L-K's, I mean he filled in where i sucked.
HE was perfect and submissive.I feel bad, he is dying and he is a tired old man. He was the only one of his litter to surivive puppy hood i reamber getting him when i was about 6 years old on a winter day,..and taking him home...Good bye Newtie...I loved you alot

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 00:27:39 GMT

Well I am happy to be home safe.
For the record liss is a good driver, accidents happen.
And it scared me, but god is so good and provides..and keeps us safe, thank goodness.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 21:56:45 GMT

God is so good.
I can not even explain it. HE just keeps answering my prayers and providing.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 15:51:19 GMT

The First Day of fall is the last day I'll kiss the sky, The cold air surprises my bones who have been spoiled by the summer's heat

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 15:44:39 GMT

I am home.
Camp is over! maybe that is a blessing in desguise, now is the time to transfer all the things god showed me there...in a christian bubble...to the real world. The challenge is set and i suppose i am ready.
Cyndi is coming to pick me up in a few minutes, i cannot wait to see chiense ( i can never spell it)

So yesterday was filled with goodbyes, something i claim to not care about, when in fact i am relizing I do get rather fond and attached to people.

I don't know how i would put camp this summer. I was alot quieter then usual. Still many things i must work on...taming of the tounge (pulls out whip). Hmm, There was just so much mixed feelings about what went on at camp, but god really gave me peace about it when i was reading my bible the one night.

things I loved about this year:

*sleepovers with liz
*Trips to port with peter,seth and justin
*consuming more oreo cookies with peter in the last 4 days then i ever have before in my life
*playing mash until 4 in the morining with sarah
*playing MASH in the elevator with jill and liz
*actually respecting leadership
*asking sam puberty questions
*having god alot more in focus with the whole staff body
*have the best fort with lindsay
*listening to rap and hip hop when vomit and poop were to be cleaned
*buying a lobster at 1:40 in the moring with jill and judy
*seth, justin and peters naked bodies (not that fond of the memorie but it was funny)
*listening to simon and garfunkle alot
*time with laura saffrazza and jack johnson (only his sweet voice)

**** VISITS AND BIRTHDAY SURPRISES (& CALLS) FROM AWESOME FRIENDS*****
there was just so many things....
thanks ever one for a great summer:)

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 19:16:25 GMT

Miss Hillary Moore
CHCC
4442 Bruce Rd 1
RR ..2
Paisley, ON
N0G 2N0

Write me this summer..and you get a prize and the best letter ever written by hillary moore.

Mon, 16 May 2005 04:38:50 GMT

I heard the voice of a good person today and it made my life feel back in focus

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 04:07:54 GMT

1 peter 2:1-3

Therefore rid yourselves of all malice and all deciet,hypocrisy,envy,and slander of every kind. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk. So that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted the lord is good.

* I feel like i need to rid myself. of negitivity and shed the skin and press word to be more god honoring he is center in of all. When at one of my most questioning stages he provided his answer in a strong, powerful way.
I want to crave him.

Psalm 118:6-8

The lord is with me; I will not be afraid.
what can man do to me?
the lord is with me; he is my helper
I will look in triumph on my enemies
It is better to take refuge in the lord
than to trust in man.

*there is nothing to fear when god is by myside...i will truimph and not let satan win. God provides and he will continue to.

Thanks for those poeple that i haven't been great to ... you open my eyes

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 00:21:56 GMT

*NOTE TO SELF* never ever ever inturrupt dad when he is on the phone to ask if there is any left over roastbeef....

p.s. my step mom hoards all the good food for her and dad...

Boys and Girls..

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 00:58:55 GMT

K, this age sucks
i am so happy but in other things i am so sad and confused i cried for the first time in like a month or so about a boy...WOw..hi my name is hillary "silly sobbing" moore. It was so dumb. and i like how i come up with excuses to justify myself liking someone. but if anyone likes someone, i get bitter and tell them they are just run by hormones. I am a walking hormone. who cares though. i need to be postive and love life in every way. Well i got news on a show with jesse macartney and i am watching it.

P.s. E.B. I hope you are pleased with what ever outcome you get.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 00:50:28 GMT

I don't know why but i can't pour my feelings out like i used to . i can't share things. i feel so petty, like everything that is going on is not worth talking about. i feel so much like i am feeding off the past and others peoples lives i need to do something meaningful myself then i shall be back on here with good things to say.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 03:19:26 GMT

Am I wasting my time with these feelings?
The pressure's off now so I'm back on the ground.
Too bad, I kind of liked it in the clouds with you.
Because you take me away from everything and everyone,
that's held me back for so long.
Heaven for a few days, makes up for all the hell that life's dealt me,
even now that's gone.
It seems she's got your attention now, lucky gal.
But isn't that the way it always ends?
It seems she's got your attention just like you got mine.
I'll express my feelings, then sit back and watch you walk away.
You're beautiful in every way to me.

Well bye, i hope you know how shitty you made me feel with that last sentance. i don't think i will ever like another P.S. in an email again....thats ok i am raising above...i am not going to be consumed this was the song i am usintg to wallow in you but its over...

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 04:21:12 GMT

live update in toronto.
so tonight michelle and i went with her mom and sister and husabdn to the pickle barell then to the eaton center and such....after that we walked and went to taras. she read stories, now we are back and the hotel .....eletric elevator...
night night
wow i am stupid.

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 00:46:46 GMT

"Hillary, out of all three of you i prayed life would be easiest on you"....-mom

SAD FUCKING DAY. sorry about the language. I was just with mom and we had a talk. right now i am caught somewhere in bewteen. not really knowing how i feel or what happened or what was said.

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 20:26:24 GMT

O what.!!!

Who is going to see

senses fail
killswitch engage
underoath
my chemical romance
and
the used

Thanx steph.
hey liz this is gunna be fun

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 02:06:57 GMT

so here's my funny story tioday two ladies came to coffee shop and ordered muffins...and the first ones name was norma and the second was jean...i thought it was halirous cuz tey were little old ladies. i wanna take a pic of them .

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 22:42:50 GMT

well, things are going awesmoe right now. the snow was crazy last night and sooo pretty!!!but it sucked cuz i was going to go to owen sound and visit brett. O well i got to babysit tonight and i get to tomorrow which means i get to save some money and put it away:) soon i am shall get that g1 of my lol. long enough eh?? well my old roommate from london called to day which rocked i was thrilled. i lve jaime. i wanna go visit her soon. so i think i will. dick also called today and asked to hang out so i might on monday:) maybe he will help me christmas shop:) o bad thing though i found out two of the girls i lived with are going through rough stuff, one had a baby, but she is awesome and i dunno i know she will do ok her mom will help her out. and another girl is rehab for coke addiction which sucks. but it happens. so i am glad for the wake up call. and to be happy for what i have wlel..have a good day bye

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 04:51:24 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!!
I shall save you from turning a year older:) watch me.
i am picking up the fairy dust. sleepp well tink;)

weekend...

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 22:51:06 GMT

this weekend was so much fun. love hannah, jess, josh,rachel and chris:):) and seeing everyone and brett, eric and aaron. it was so good and made me really happy, cuz i never get to hang out with them at all. i found out i wish i was asian, and taking jumping pictures are so much fun::):)
love ya everyone

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 18:39:42 GMT

i am so tired i couldn't sleep last night so i was up alllllll night i swear, i read my book "the great gatsby" and knitted and then i was drifting off and i slept and i had another almost wierd dream...

frick i keep have dreams about ch people...like ian and kyle. and hannah ....this time i had a dream we were at hannahs summer house, or something and like she had scary niegbhours,...and there was this tiny house like tiny like doll house...but the only way you could get in was like through the back and unlock the front door...the front door i could fit in but i couldn't the back so steph person was there and she unlocked the back cuz she like had shrunk or something. then ian ,kyle, hannah and i all ran in ....and wanted to take a picture of us because we were happy and having so much fun...so we like had a water fght or something dumb and sat in hannahs bath tub...and we were like hahaha lets pose like we're in love...i know i know gay i think it was kyle that said it. so we did...we were all happy and together...i don't know whats going on i think i miss seeing everyone just getting along...why do people have to hold grudges i know hurt hurts. but to some extent how can we keep living and hurting our selves?...i can't, i can't hurt others anymore...if i have been. i need to feel the freedom of god. i think i need a break. one of those breaks you don't wake up from...it just stays that way. yah anyways...so then i saw micah and we washed our hair together in my dream...kinda like we used to in ch. i am feeling sooo i dunnno right now.. i am happy sarah and i are hanging out today:) i was gunna call her but i wasn'tsure if she was busy and i felt like sitting alone kinda but then what good would i do with that only wallow~!! moving up...god is good.